J was right, there is a weirdness going on. maybe the weirdness I feel is not the same as J’s, but it’s still weird. The bad thing is it’s so negative. There’s a lot 我們 and 你們 going on, and I’m not sure where it’s coming from, I just know I hate it and I don’t know how to deal with it or react to it. Because I don’t know if I’m 我們 or 你們. Can somebody please tell me which I am? It’d make life so much easier if we could draw the line somewhere permanently.
Right now I find that if I treat myself as 我們, I feel like an intruder and I feel that people have to go out of their way to entertain me. But I can’t let go and be 你們 either, it’s been quite a few years after all. Can somebody tell me the truth straight to my face, so I know which way to go, 你們, 我們 or 陌生人. don’t know how… *angry*