Listening to: still 五月之戀
Mayday’s re-arrangement of an old song, 溫柔，became 溫柔（還我自由版). Honestly, I was tired of this song, how it meant what to so many people and of it being played to death. until they re-arranged it. Now the part that strikes me is the part where the lyrics go 我給你全部全部全部全部自由。 It’s not the lyrics, it’s the way he sings it, you have to listen to it to know what I mean.
一生中，一個人，到底有多少的自由? 從讀書到考試到工作，結婚，生孩子，一生的生離死別，我們真的那麽自由嗎？ 我現在真得很需要一點點的自由。 Why? I’m sick of listening to people quarrel over the littlest things, i’m sick of being criticized, I’m sick of everything being my fault. I’m sick of the fact that no matter what I do, and how well I do it, they’ll never trust me. I’m sick that every move I make and every word I utter is being watched. I’m sick of being questioned over everything I do. I’m sick of hiding my letters so they don’t get read. I’m sick of coming home at 4am after a drinking session and not being able to get drunk, and of seeing her damned disapproving face. I’m sick of not being able to do things on my own schedule. I’m sick of the fact that I can’t write a single blog post or article without being interrupted half-a-dozen times. I’m sick of the fact that every time I get interrupted that i have to hide my writings.
I really need to get out, and get my own space. Really soon. 可以給我全部全部全部全部的自由嗎？