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overheard at lunch 1
阿伯 1 正準備出國，啊，不是，是回國。
阿伯 2 問：從那一庁出境。
阿伯 1 回答：老的老的。
阿伯 1 和阿伯 3 開始
我 （吃飯中頓了一下）心理OS: 阿伯，你是在指家裏那位‘老的‘ 嗎？囧

overheard at lunch 2:
man: you (referring to female colleague) have a cheeky smile
female colleauge: ya! everytime I smile like that, people always tell me i have something up ON my sleeve
me: 囧 + ”’

overheard at lunch # 1 brings me to last week’s encounter…
我下了班后，不是很餓，所以就繞道去mr bean買豆奶當晚餐，店員都是大陸同胞。
我 （聽者耳機）：豆花水，熱的，一杯
店員：（愣了兩秒鐘，盯住我看）
我：（啊，可能因爲聼耳機，講話太小聲） 熱的，一杯 （指了她旁邊一大通的豆奶）
店員： （又愣了兩秒鐘）
我：（有點不耐煩了， 把耳機抓了出來）：豆奶，熱的，一杯！
店員：（愣了半秒鐘）：噢！ 燒的！
我：囧，是的，燒的。

這是文化在鬧小革命嗎？

smoking, spacing out and sweltering in the hot sun this morning (the sacrifices i make!), a colleague passed me by and asked what was I thinking about so hard?

actually at that very moment, I was thinking wouldn’t it be nice to take a day off and go nua at sentosa with iced lemon tea, dark sunnies, suntan lotion and a good book.

I think that I may have spent too many hours in a different world yesterday. 

Ended up dreaming i was in genting with some of the girls.  well, we kept saying that we were in genting.  but the strangest thing was we had to keep running trotting out of the hotel room and passing through this area which looked ominously like the Marrakech souks.  everybody there wore cloaks and stood around talking, while we kept going past them, and not just walking, trotting…  we were out on some weird quests errands too, gathering water and oxygen and plants that gave off light.

when i came in to office, instead of putting my fingers on the A-S-D-F keys on the keyboard as I normally would, they automatically went to the W-A-S-D keys. 

oops!

A year after they came for FH, they finally made it back to our shores again, this time for a much shorter performance, sharing the stage with 品冠 and 陳昇, whom Shir and I persisted in referring to as Uncle Chen.  Thinking back, surprisingly, there wasn’t a lot of grousing (among ourselves) about how short the performance would be etc etc.  Of course, there might have been, but I’ve been keeping to home base pretty much for the past few weeks (less meetups = less cash output).  

My zero-income status (as coined by mama) had for some time over-shadowed the prospect of seeing even 昇哥 on stage for the 1st time, although admittedly at the time of purchase, the price of admittance was kinda maybe somehow reasonable.   APB and whichever marketing team dreamed up the whole ABC concert shindig, as I declare on an annual basis, ought to be dragged out and shot though.

The man deserves R-E-S-P-E-C-T.   At the end of the night, I could barely stand, yet this old geezer (:P) who, judging by his reputation, had probably been guzzling alchol since dinnertime, was prancing around the stage with his antics, and forcing the other ‘kids’ to down stout like there was no tomorrow.  I have now finally experienced 陳昇 and know why his New Year’s eve concerts in Taiwan sell out every year. 

The 品冠 portion was a little less entertaining for me, since I’m not really a fan of his, but the ‘old songs’ part was very nice (I even managed some of the lyrics), and as usual the mafia had our own little fun (as usual) when some decided QH’s sis, the youngest ‘newbie’ in attendance needed some ermm education as to what was considered OLD songs.

The last bit of the concert belonged to Mayday, somehow nowadays by default, and it seemed that almost all the crowd in the free-standing area was there for them.  Amazingly, none of them were ill and all were in the sweetest of moods, considering that the new album release is looming ahead.  With some shame, I have to admit that the lyrics now do not roll off my tongue so easily, I am no longer unable to bop to an entire rendition of 軋車, and I don’t remember the rundown.  CRAP. 

As per tradition, we then went to the usual place for supper.  Yesterday’s crazily rowdy meal surprisingly belonged to us, and not the stars.  We were given a table in a rather conspicuous location, surprisingly, made even more rowdy and conspicuous (the other fans have become soooo lady-like, oops) because everybody was starving and SW didn’t even bother to protect her friend from the vultures who made off with a plate of chicken in about 15 seconds (rest assured, we are very proud of our personal best) and a plate of noodles in under a minute. 

When it comes to the MM and food in general, do not, I repeat, do not blink, do not hesitate, please hang up the phone and stop day-dreaming.  I suspect they’ve been picking up habits from the ermm wrong band of people.  They do not leave any food behind when they’re hungry, not even when a particular band is around, and they laugh at you when you end up with nothing to eat.  Now that’s what I call true friendship?? 

翰智慧, the nutty 小太妹 in 新娘紗十八歲 totally reminds me of Linda, the crazy mafia mamasan. Why? Because she’s a nutty 小太妹 and Linda is … yep, you get the idea.

Listening to: 知足 Disc SEA

posting here for now…

A week after Singapore’s Final Home, because I didn’t know what to write before. Honestly I can’t remember anything about it, except a few bits and pieces here and there. It’s as if my brain is fast-forwarding through the concert, and then stopping for a split-second here and there, those are the little frames I remember. But I can truly say I enjoyed it. Not because they were good-looking. Not because they were skilful. Not even because I was there with the Mayday Mafia (MM). But because they had fun, and because they had fun, we had fun, and because these were songs I had lived and loved for the past 5 years.

Am I a born-again Mayday-ian? I don’t think so. I wish I could be. I miss those days, 2001 to 2004, where we went Mayday-crazy. We were those little fanatics, even though we deluded ourselves into thinking we were not. But the fun and laughter and happiness we shared was fucking spectacular. So much so, that I couldn’t tell were we happy because Mayday made us happy, or did we make ourselves happy, so we made our Mayday lives a bit more happier. confused yet? don’t be…

Did our lives revolve around Mayday, or did Mayday revolve around our lives? I think there was a bit of both.

1999 Music Festival at Sentosa
I was there alone, happy to have seen Mayday and Tolaku ‘live’ for the first time.

2001 10K Youths
When I first met Flo and SH and SW and QH and Fiona, yep, our lives revolved around Mayday. We went from meeting online to meeting in real life, and our conversations were Mayday, mayday, mayday. I thought I was too old to do this, but they never made me feel so. I was just a part of this little group of friends, to whom gender and age didn’t matter.

2002 NYQNL
Then when Mayday went on hiatus in 2002, we didn’t cry, we weren’t vexed. It wasn’t the end, why cry? We went in search of our own dreams, or at least Flo and SH did. And they’ve done it. And I’m happy for them. and so it became that, we didn’t live a Mayday life, we lived our lives because there was Mayday and 憨人 became our anthem. There were dreams, hard work, tears, scars,

2003 TKZC
In 2003, they came back, bigger and better, and we were still there, happier than ever. We also started meeting the rest of the gals who would in the course of ‘03-’04 become the MM. I think our lives started revolving Mayday again, just a little bit. when you have new friends, i guess you find eve more stuff to laugh, talk and gush about.

2004
The year when they didn’t come to Sg for a concert and we missed them like the pits. That year God’s children started to dance, and in a way it started to spell the end for me, because I couldn’t come to terms with some of the more …aesthetic… changes being done to them It was also the first time I actually I admitted that I couldn’t like their songs on the first listen. nevertheless, we finally decided, after 3 years of talking about it, to make it to Taipei for their concert in 2005 and spent a fun 2 months planning the trip. In retrospect, in some ways, I shouldn’t have gone for this concert, since I not much of a ‘herd animal’ (no offence meant). but in other ways, it made me come to terms with a lot of things being done and said, and it gave me a nearly 8-month break, which, in truth, was good for me.

2005 Final Home Taipei
Less is more, some say, so I guess I shall not relive this disastrous year again here. Once is enough. The concert, to me, was a disaster to the ‘rock music’ reputation, and in my current state of mind and health at the moment of time, I did not have any qualms about making my feelings known. When I came back to Singapore, I cut off all contacts with the MM and stopped everything Mayday in my life for the next 8 months, and declared myself an ex-fan. Do I regret this declaration, or the 8 months? No, I can say very very emphatically, No, I do not.

But in a way, I regret going to Taipei when I was in that condition. I made things crap for myself and for the MM. One day, I will return to Taipei again, yes, by myself again, but no, without all that burdensome horridness. Come to think of it, I think thorough this year, I have gone on and on about it being a crappy trip, but I’ve never apologized for making it so.

If any of the MM ever pass by here, I AM BLOODY SORRY FOR BEING A BITCH SCREWING UP THE TRIP!!! Claim a can of beer from me if you ever see me on the street. There, that’s the extent of what I can do.

Dec 2005 Final Home Singapore
I wanted to watch this concert alone initially. But I decided to go with the MM anyway. I kind of regret that now. No offence meant, again. Over the past few months, I have decided that, not being a herd animal, I survive better on my own. After all, I enjoyed my first Mayday concert, even though I was alone. I enjoyed my 2nd Mayday concert, even though I was partially alone. I think I would rather do it this way in the future. Because I cannot bring myself to enjoy Mayday the way everybody else does. But I enjoyed it. It was absolute fun seeing them and their roadies having fun on stage, and that is the absolute essence of Mayday (much better than chicken essence) that I had lost and have been looking for over the past year.

Have I gotten old? yes I have, and I’ve changed a lot over these few years. It could be that FH121005 is the last MD concert I’ll ever attend again, my Final Home. It could be that MM will remain in my past, but they will carry on having fun. I still want them as my friends, but maybe MM has an age limit that I didn’t know about, and now I do.

I don’t know. I’ve said a lot of shitty things. I’ve done a lot of crappy things. To those who forgave me, thank you. to those who got hurt, I’m sorry, and next time don’t read my blog so much I’ve said and predicted a lot of things, and I always change my mind. What can I say, it’s a woman’s perogative All I can say is I don’t regret it, any of it. the good, the bad, the ugly.

2005 started with Final Home, and it was a bad year. 2005 ended with Final Home, and it was a good year.

haha well, i think 怪獸 and 瑪莎 have a problem anyway, they’ve gotten addicted to exposing their butts! =_=”’ lolz, anyway, congrats to Mayday for winning Best Group in the 15th Taiwan Golden Melody Awards this year! 8th May 2004! Like ‘ says, the 5 of them, in their 5th anniversary year, winning it in May, it’s really a great great thing! haha sucks to Shin for daring to even think of winning it.

I didn’t get to watch it, but called QH up just as the award came on, haha, she was screaming all over the place and Shir was on her phone with tempura, and the 2 of us were like trying to scream softly inside NYDC, Holland V hahaha! I got the clips later that nite anyway, after getting home at almost 4am after the karaoke, thanks to obdurate in PTT and boh! Energy carried Monster all the way from his seat to the bottom of the stage, hahaha and the other 4 guys followed behind, they were SOOOO HAPPY! haha i haven’t seen them grin like that for so long!. Of course, 瑪莎 had to be the 勁暴 one and announced that all 5 of them weren’t wearing underwear, hahahaah, well we all know Monster doesn’t have the habit, but the others as well??!!!

Later, when they were backstage, i think they must have been drunk or delirious by happiness or both, and Monster and Masa both dropped their pants and flashed all the reporters there!!! hahaah well, not all the way, but OMG! OMG! geez! the newspaper reports were funniest when they reported Monster had a nicer butt than Masha, who had pimples on his ewwwwwww! *_*

well, i guess I’m really really happy for Mayday, but I can’t help mourning a little, just for myself. We’ve been feeling that Mayday has been getting further and further away from us, especially these 2 years, on their way to becoming a superstar band. I think most of us can’t forget 2002 during the SARS period, when there were so few of us at the airport to send them off, and Mayday were so 親切, even stopping for a photo, and 石頭 coming up to film the lot of us with his videocam. But lately, they’re so distant. Of course, being who I am, there’s no way they’ll ever know who I am, but still, that gulf between Mayday and their fans is so great now. they’re no longer just 5 guys and us the friends who support them and their songs. They’re now Mayday, 中文樂壇的第一天團 and we are their fans.

I think I’m a bit depressed again, coz I sang 九號球 for the 1st time yesterday night at the KTV. I didn’t think I could do it, but I think I like singing the song too much, coz I did it anyway. Listening to the song on repeat mode now, it’s not so bad, coz my mind is occupied with this typing, but when I’m alone on my earphones, the lyrics really hurt and I have to cry a little cry. I don’t know who I cry for now, but I still do, sometimes. Still can’t bear to watch the MV…kudos to the director, was this what he was aiming for, who he is, I can’t remember, nvr mind, Shir will remind me ^_^

逃走 翻過圍牆 我只能逃走 從教室裡頭
奔向自由 熟悉角落 有人在等我 有挑釁的笑容

今天誰先開球 讓誰嘗點苦頭
綠色地平在線 我撞著 彩色墮落

也許我這一桿 又沒辦法進球
就像我的生活 一直在出差錯

也許我這一生 始終在追逐那顆九號球
卻忘了 是誰在愛我
卻忘了 是誰在罩著我

從前 書包很滿 裝不下的夢 就丟了一些
未來我們 要怎麼活 凝視著白球 暫時我不去想

天空漸漸變紅 影子爬滿球桌
輸贏沒有結果 像人生 難以捉摸

lovefool’s reply
director
tat’s easy, director is ashin ah, the new generation poet of Chinese Rock music.

small case!